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Name: Synergy
Location: Cincinnati, Ohio, United States
Birthday: 2/9/1983
Gender: Female
Expertise: "You really are a chilly-hearted,
disengaged observer of the human
condition...Whatever you're doing,
the inner you is busy making
observations and taking notes....
Perverse is how you like it; you
don't do routine or reliable, and
although you want everybody else
to show how much they need you,
you'd rather drink rocket coolant than
let them know you needed them. You
are cranky and surly when it would be
more productive to be charming and
cooperative...As for the
absentmindedness--the I-am-far-too-
intellectual-and-otherworldly-to-
remember-what-day-it-is-or-to-wipe-my
-own-butt-or-do-the-supermarket-run
routine? it's just a very good act. You get
out of all the dull stuff, like social
engagements or work; you don't have to
keep telling tedious people like your
spouse what you are up to; ...and [if]
people find you out as the parasitical drone
you are, then you just shrug and point to
the logo on your T-shirt,
'Take Me or Leave Me' (Hyde
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/6/2003
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| i suppose i choose incredible impovrishment over wild oats. no way to live. post-op waitressing is not helping me catch up either.
up and coming: scholastic investigation begins. my nails are too long to type. a sign of vanity, laziness or desire to affectionate. did i make that up? eww...
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paul gave a little light. i talked to megan tonight. i went to bed with
an email from mali. mike wrote me and andrea sent me a stupid card that
she knew would make me laugh. i may be a guarded, detached, formulating
bitch with a pretentious denial of dependency and incredible difficulty
filtering destructive influences, but DAMNIT! i have had loving
relationships, i have loving relationships, i'm LEARNING
and it's not that bad! ... they call them
'demons' because you know...they don't really go away! history sends
the son of god or frightening priests to shoo these things off and
everybody's got em.
o.k... here comes my logo, but i won't point at it without
recognizing that i am fully capable of becoming more self-aware every
day...
(observe new fixed background)
that's right. ;)
(feeling a little bi-polar and in a slightly good mood)
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| it's incredible how neurotic i've forgotten i am. basic things.
no clairvoyance necessary. i'm distant and reclusive (oh but
social) , i am outrageously dependant (and in complete
denial) and i don't think i have EVER called a friend
because i was upset.
my mom decided that we were never going to be close because i wouldn't
talk to her when i was crying. i
think she has a t-shirt that says "it's all about me." her key
chain says
"whatever."
my neurosis aside, i like to relationship-vent wisely. .
anyway the last thing i want to hear is some uninformed encouragement
about how i could do better with senseless stabs at the person i care
enough to CRY over--which are poor assesments from straining to hear
one side of broken conversations in the first place.
yes i can ignore my flaws by bitching about my mom.
my head is pounding.
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